Friday, January 25, 2013

Chapter #15 : Ohana, Part II

'.... or forgotten. '
                                     - Lilo and Stitch


Part II of my family post, and this time I'll be emphasizing on my current family by choice, aka my friends from university. Though our class is small, there's still an obvious trend of people forming into social groups. In my case, I'm affiliated to the P family, a group of 'siblings' with codenames of animals starting with the letter P xD

Seriously though, who came up with this P thingy? I know it started with Peacock and Penguin, but why can't we pick animals that doesn't start with P? I wanted be a fox, goes well with my name Sly don't ya think? :P

*ahem*

Personally I find myself very fortunate to have found this bunch of friends. It's only been 3 months since we first knew each other, and yet we've been through a lot together. The me you see now, the "improved" me, can all be contributed to them. They've been my support, my catalyst to change. They're my living proof that friendship doesn't depend on how long you've known each other, but how well you do. I'm really looking forward to spending my still-long-to-go uni life, and getting to know these family members of mine even better! :)

Now to describe the members further, based on mua's personal point of view ^^
(P/s : I'm the eldest, the gor gor of the lot  :P )



Disclaimer : What I'm about to say are all based on personal views. Please refrain from resorting to violence or death sentences if you find it too.... whatever you find it to be that makes you wanna obliterate my existence. Proceed with own risk. You have been warned..... please? ):



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3rd eldest : Allistair Adam, aka Peacock
The only other male in the family, and my arch enemy in class if you will it. A little crazy, VERY power hungry, and is a total jacket freak. He also has the tendency to lose his brain in certain cases. The truth is, he is the guy that changed my perception towards males, albeit only a little. In a way, I see parts of myself in him, thus a better perception of my own self. He's also my competitor, as I always look towards him for competition, which in turn pushes me to extends that I've not known I'm capable of. He is one of the few guys that I respect wholeheartedly, Without him, I doubt I'll be anywhere near the person I am now.


Da jie :  Kyen Tsoo, aka Puppy (?)
The big sister (2nd eldest) of the lot, and one that always carry a smile.. though don't let that smile deceive you... very very very very skinny girl though. Funnily enough, I've started uni thinking that she's one of the very very quiet types. Not that she's very loud or anything ,but still :P She always seem so nice, never having a temper, though sometimes she can be a little  evil  mischievous. However she's very humble and nice, and have lend me a helping hand countless times. She always leave a good impression no matter when or what the situation is, and talking to her never seem to impose the slightest hint of pressure. Too bad she's taken :P

p/s : my mom consider her as the prettiest girl among my friends. Extra info doesn't hurt xP


Er jie : QS, aka Panda 
The more logical and cool sister, though that's not always true.... at least not the logical part xP. I first met her during the password test, though I didn't paid much attention then. It was during orientation that she caught my eye, as I thought that she looked familiar. A very cute girl, though sometimes a little cold IMO ^^'' I actually found it hard to talk to her at first, though as time passes she's actually quite nice to get along with. She's also very skilled at arts and crafts, as evident from our many times working together. I very much like her style of dressing ( the matchup of black & white + the style is perfect!), and her personality makes her that much more unique! An interesting girl indeed, one that I really wanna make an effort to know better of, though that might be a little hard to approach ^^''


San jie : Suzie, aka Possum
If you've been following my blog since chapter #1, then surely you've known her already. Used to be a cute girl, but after her haircut she's now a stylish cute girl xD Has a cheeky laugh ( :P) , and can always been seen smiling. A huuge fan of chocolate, and also a huuuuuge fan of anime, even bigger than me! Interesting enough, ever since orientation, I think I've been in the same group with her for at least 80% of every group activity, be it group projects, mini discussions, clubs or what not. Weird huh? Guess in that sense I kinda mixed with her the most, at least until..... well at least the awkwardness doesn't exist anymore ^^ Anyway, personally I find her to have this eighteen-year-old-dressing-like-adult-hence-having-a-cute-yet-feminine-look, so yeah she's pretty ^^. A nice easy going girl, though when time requires she can still put up a good attitude. (Y)


Xiao mei : Yik Wei, aka Penguin
Another sister that makes a lot of appearance in my blog, and a very cute one at that! Funnily enough she's actually older than Possum and Panda !.... just not so much in sense of height xP She always accuses me of bullying her though, while I'm merely showing my way of caring for my little sister! ): Very fun to talk to, always willing to make jokes and do nonsense with me xD She has provided me with a lot of support in my time of stress during EOS, and for that I'm really grateful. :) She also very responsible in what she's doing, and would sometimes even take on the role of "big sister" and plans for everything! ....though I still find a very strong urge of protecting her :3  If you've been following my blog then you'd already have a good idea on what she means to me. Love her loads !! 

Side note: her hair is very soft and it's nice to pat her head :P


Sister-to-be-pulled-in : Shu yi, aka .... errrrr.... ??? 
Not exactly one of our family member, though I guess she deserves a slight mention as well. A very pretty girl with big round eyes and can pass as a korean. I used to think that she's a very classy non-sociable girl... how wrong have I been xD She's sweet, but still she still makes jokes, talk nonsense and is very friendly :P Don't really know her that well but I have a very good impression of her. ^^ It also helps that she sometimes bully weiwei with me as well :P


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That's all for now! There's still a lot to talk about them, though I think I better leave the rest for myself for my own safety ^^'' I sincerely hope that in the years to come, we'll be even more closer. Without you all, I'm nothing, and I'm proud of that. =D


Chapter #14 : Ohana, Part I

'Ohana means family. Family means no one gets left behind... '
                                                                                           - Lilo and Stitch 

Just thought of starting off my post with a famous quote from Lilo & Stitch, since it's related to the word family. Frankly speaking, I'm not exactly sure of the term family. As those who've known we well enough would know, my family ain't exactly up for the best family award. However, I've grown to accept life as it is, for better or worse, and life's been acceptable thus far :)

Owh and speaking of family, there's a new family member in the house! Meet NiNi, the toy poodle! I shall let the pictures do the talking now ^_^ 



Warning : Uber cuteness alert ! Possible symptoms include squealing, shouting, jealousy, intentions to commit crimes of stealing, and even death by cuteness. Proceed at your own risk. You have been warned ! 



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NiNi, the poodle~ 


Small and cute~


*Sip sip*


Blurring~


*Stare *


*Stare summore*


Grrr~!!


Stuck!! >_<


Night night~



Penguin don't jealous yeah ~ :P

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Chapter #13 : Melody

Went out with my uni mates for karaoke session yesterday, and it was a blast ! I must say, if there's 2 obvious talents in my psychology class, it's :

a) Having fun, going crazy and NOT look like university students
b) Singing

Seriously. Everywhere you look, there's bound to be someone that's awesome in singing. Too bad not everyone shared that passion (I'm looking at you penguin and da jie! Yes I know you two read my blog xP ) . No matter, I'm sure in the   coming months we'll be infecting both of you  with the singing virus ~ xP

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Owh, and did I mention yesterday was also our results day for our first EOS exam? Yeah....though everything went better than expected! c:


My results~!  


Yup, a CGPA of 3.94 ! I'd be lying if I said I'm not happy with my results ! Though far more than happiness , was the feeling of contend. I'm just happy that my effort and tears did not go into waste TvT 

Yet I must say, I am a lil' 'disappointed' in my A- . YES I KNOW I SOUND VERY PROUD AND COCKY NOW, but seriously, I could half-guess why I got an A- instead of an A, and it has nothing to do with having not study enough or something like that. I guess it's kinda the "so near, yet so far" feeling? Ahh well, can't do anything about it now.
.....

Well, technically, I CAN retake, but that'll be crazy and I'm sure my friends will be looking at me with this " OMG are you serious can you please go die " look and refuse to talk to me ever again, so nah ~ :P

Anyway, I really have to thank my cute lil' penguin for everything. Seriously, without her, I doubt I'd have the will to push myself to study without breaking under my own self-induced stress.She was supportive and put up with my nonsense throughout our study break, in addition to her condition and stress level. I'm even starting to think whether I can even get above 3.5 if it weren't for her. >.< 

Glad to say her grades are quite awesome as well despite being sick throughout the study break and exam period. Really proud and happy for you lil' penguin! ♥ 


Now, what to do for the remainder of my 2 weeks holidays.... ?


Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Chapter #12 : Sorrow?

What's more scarier?

The fact that you had to live through your nightmares again, or the fact that you don't even care anymore?

For years I've knew my life was never the reality. Fragile links, broken pieces, and an illusion to mask up the truth. That's my world.

Now and then, the cloak falls off, revealing the truth that everyone knows, yet will never admit. The world comes crashing down, until the time the cloak is placed on again. Back to square 1. Rinse and repeat.

But what if, one day, you no longer care? Not that you try not to care, or hide your feelings inside, but from the bottom of your heart, you no longer can? 

Once upon a time, tears were still shed. 
Once upon a time, feelings were still hidden.
Once upon a time, souls were still torn.

But once upon a time, was never meant to last forever. 

Tears stopped flowing,

Feelings stopped showing,
And souls could no longer be torn.
When that day comes, what have you become?

I'm afraid. Not at the nightmare, not anymore. 
I'm afraid of  the person I am becoming, or have already become.

Today marks the death of my soul.
Or has it already been dead since long ago?

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Sometimes I wonder if I'm never meant to have any happy moments, or that all my happiness must be compensated with equal sorrow.

It was only yesterday, that I had my first, unforgettable trip with my friends from university. Though we only meet for 3 months, I could undoubtedly say they meant a lot to me. Laughter and screams, joys and teases, and truth sharing moments. Now, this.

I miss that moment already.
Save me.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Chapter #11 : Memories & Reality


"Together with the knights, 
open a path, 
and look upon the young king."

Had an unexpected "visit" from a long-time friend yesterday. An important friend. A memory. 

Now it's not that I haven't seen or talk to her for a long time, heck she's even in the same university as me! But nonetheless it was a nice time chatting with her, of exams and holidays and random stuff.

Then she told me :



"Actually there's a thing gonna tell you.
You really changed a lot.
Became a better person :) "


Really never expected that, at least not from a friend who I've known for at least 10 years.

Then I was thinking, have I really changed that much?

Sure there's the dressing style and hair style and all, but am I all that different from merely a few years, or maybe even only a few months ago?

Some of my university friends rated me as confident, outspoken, always seem to aim for the sky and what-not. But would they regard me as the same if they've seen how I was in high school? Would they believe I'm the same person they know if they've known me earlier? I wonder.... 

I've once read in a Facebook post, that one thing about university is, it's a place to start afresh. No one knows or cares about your background, or how you were before this. It's a place to reshape your image, to show the world what you want them to see. I'm starting to believe this. :)

Let's just hope that she'll like this me as well, whoever she may be ^^



*dot dot dot*



Owh, and I got a Rilakkuma gift, all the way from Japan !!! xD
Both the head and the flag waves at you !! It's just so adorable!! 

Yeah, this is part of me as well xP


Rilakkuma !! Thanks Suzie~ ♥ 


Thursday, January 3, 2013

Chapter #10 : Harmless

Just finished my second exam paper. Can't say it was extremely easy but.... let's say I had a strong feeling of getting a very good grade. All was well and good, even after the exam and all the way till I reached home. Then emptiness fell through.

Ever had the feeling of void?
A feeling of wanting to do something to fill that gap inside,
yet unmotivated to do anything at all?

Maybe it's the stressed release after completing my 2 papers,
maybe it's because the next paper is days ahead,
and maybe I really needed to let go and rest...

but I just can't. No matter what I do, or what I DON'T do,
the sense of uneasiness is still there.

Have I lost my fangs?
Have I lost my claws?
Have I lost the will to strive;
the will to live in the world of prowess?
Have I become contend with being.... common?

.... Is it because of that sudden realization that...
Slowly, but surely....I'm losing you?

I'm lost.... yet I must move on.

Hopefully by dawn,
my claws will shine once more,
with a heart shooting for the moon;
Never reachable, yet never ceasing to try. 



Save me.