Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Chapter #35: 无谓的故事

许久没写部落格了,
期间发生了许许多多的事;
有开心的,珍惜的,
有伤心的,流泪的;
没想到,让我重新写起的,竟是件无关紧要的事

能让一个人进入你的内心,
代表着信任,崇拜,关怀,
同时也意味着,把内心世界的钥匙,
分给了值得的人

这明明只是件小事,
也不是说有什么值得庆祝,
也不是说很久没联络了,
(差得远呢@@)
更不是什么区分的问题;
明明就能很理性的去分析,
却不能理性的压抑情绪。。。

太多的不公平,太多的困境,
太多的顾虑,太多的解释,
太多的虚笑,太少的考虑,
太少的疑问,太迟的猜疑。。

随着时间的过去,我们靠近了;
却因为太靠近,而疏远了。。

可能是我想太多,
只是时间的巧合,
我也相信你别无他意;
只是单纯的单纯

如果你读到这篇文章,
这是我第一次欺骗你,隐瞒你
希望你别生气担心;
我并非故意隐藏,而是真的没事,
就让我自私地默默地流下无意义的泪,
过去了,一切都没事的 :)

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Fraction of my Heart

For all that I've said,
Nothing can describe how I really felt.
So here's to you, a fraction of my heart,
Dedicated to you, to all my dearest.

Suzie:
For as long as I remember, I've always been close to you. We share ideas, opinions, truth and all in betweens. For as long as I remember, there isn't a day that we would talk and not share laughter for some random reason. In some way, talking to you brightens up my day, so thanks for being there! You're humble & polite, to both others and yourself, and I can say the worst I've seen of you is still milder than a lot of others I know. You're sweet, yet deep down you can be quite mature and serious as well. I could see that you're really determined in making a stand in our field, as for many times I've seen you reach out for opportunities to learn more outside the textbook, be it on event talks or conferences, as well as being down when you didn't reach your own goals. However, in my opinion, you seem to place others in front of yourself, and often choosing to accommodate rather than voice out your opinion. Not that it's a bad thing, but sometimes I could see you in dissatisfaction yet trailing along without a word. For me, it just didn't seem fair for you. Friendships are mutual, and I wish that it's the same for you too.

Kyen:
You're an interesting person. You look sweet and quiet, yet after knowing you I now know that you can be random and crazy as well if you wanted to. I know I always tease that you are like a silent killer or ghost pepper, but actually I can never imagine you doing anything bad. Minor ones maybe, but to me you're one of the sweetest, yet truthful person I know. You're also really easy and fun to talk to, as I've find myself coming to you for all sorts of stuff, be it academic, opinions, future, relationship, or even just random talking. No matter what I say, you seem to be able to respond to my randomness with a pinch of your own. In many ways, you're like a best friend to me. Yet sometimes, I felt that I'm the one throwing all the complains at you, and never vice versa. Although now I know the reason now, I'd still hope that you would not hesitate to share your problems with me, if not for sharing opinions or even just as a friend to hear you out. You've always been there for me; I'd like to do the same for you :)

QS:
Your talent in art soars the skies, and you are one of the, if not THE most talented person I know, so that goes without saying. You're also very determined, as I've rarely seen you give up on something you said you'd do, no matter how trivial it may be. Lastly, you have really good memory, almost always remembering all the small details I've said. I always say that you are cold and mysterious, though that's not entirely true. To say your cold is an exaggeration, as though you look cool and cold, you can be quite cheeky,random and bubbly as well once get to know you. To say you're mysterious is somewhat wrong too, as in many ways I sort of resonate with you, be it in our sense of fashion, music, views of life, interest, and many more! Still, I find you to be very interesting and attractive, not only in appearance wise (p/s: you look really awesome just as you are now! Have more confident!), but as a whole person. Sometimes I feel a bit distant from you, other times I feel that you are close to the heart. You're never one to be deduced by reason, as feelings are what construe you as who you are. I guess it is that unpredictability, yet how similar both of us can be (I think?) that makes you stand out from the rest in my world.

Yik Wei:
You are the first person to notice the burden I carry; While all others congratulate me for my success, you're the first to notice the trails of anguish behind me. You always give me good advices, try to motivate me when I'm done, and though many have said that they can understand my feelings, you might be the first that truly made me felt this way. You're a very caring person, and though our relationship is no longer as close as before, I still find myself looking to you, depending on you when all hell breaks loose. You're never one to hide your thoughts, as you would be truthful and stand up for yourself. Though I always tease you, treat you like the smallest sister, you're actually a lot more than that. You're matured, yet retaining the childish side inside your heart, and in some ways it seems like you're more fitting of the "eldest role" than I do. I'm sorry if I've offended you unintentionally, and I know I had a lot of times, and thanks for lashing out at me so I don't go out of bound, and still forgive me after that. Though I do wish that we could be as close as before, I understand that life goes on, and maybe one day we could return to the old times, with a more matured heart and soul. We'll just have to wait and see.


Now I wonder, what are YOUR impressions of me as a whole? :P